Okay I have ONE more paper left to complete tomorrow. I'm not ready for it, but what the hell.
Tomorrow, 21st November 2008, at 11am, I will be FREE from the shackles we call the GCE 'A' levels.

Hell yeah! 

So all ya'all science-faculty biatches can stop rubbing it in that you guys finished last friggin' week aiights? ~*kiddin'

P.S. Also, I have stupidly dropped my cell into a sewer. So this is a plea for you guys to please sms me with your names. I'd really appreciate it  =) The number is the same as it was 5 years ago.

P.S.S. REGARDLESS of what Aindreas SAYS. I AM NOT LOOKING FOR A DUMBASS BOYFRIEND WHO HAS NOTHING ON HIS MIND BUT MAPLESTORY. 

Well. *cough* toodles~  

Valerie Tay commited suicide on the 13th of October at the age of 20, 3 months before her 31st birthday.

Heartbreak, sadness and a feeling of emptiness.

In the hospital, she told her father:  “爸，我把快乐给你们留下，让悲伤给我带走”.

But all I can see in the wake of her passing on is numerous accounts of pain, hurt and grief despite understanding in some instances and an effort to 'be happy' for her.

Many of us have contemplated suicide. Those that actually go ahead and do it makes those left behind feel bereft and hurt because have they really been such lousy friends that she had nothing left to keep her here? Was her grief so huge, her pain so bad that ending life is the only way out? I don't know. I really don't.
I never knew her personally, give or take several chance encounters in-game. But my closest friends knew her and their grief is palpable. She was an amazing girl -- beautiful, intelligent, filial and a wonderful friend. Wise. Someone told lil Ryan that his sister was taken away early because she was so perfect.

Yet she might have been one of the loneliest people I've ever met.

Let the grievers take comfort in that she loved each and every single one of you in her own way. Though it might be easy to point fingers and the urge to shove blame somewhere is strong, just don't. She would have hated it because that's the kind of girl she was. Self-sacrificing to the very last. Humans err, some more than others, that's all.

"Daddy, I'm leaving all the happiness behind for you guys, and taking away the pain and sadness with me." -Val.




( short update )

My net went down at home a month ago, (Maybe more, I lost count) which really, really sucks. 

My parents said they'd get me a new modem after my second round of block tests. They're over. Have been over for 3 weeks now. 

Now mum says that since my brother is going into the U next month, I might as well wait till he gets his laptop so that I can take over his desktop.

Then my brother says no way in hell he'll give up his desktop since he paid for it with his own money.

So the mother says that since my 18th birthday is coming up, I can get a laptop for my birthday AND christmas and maybe for my birthday next year as well. No qualms about that. But....

... After my A levels. Which is in 2 months time.

Consider Jillian dead, thanks. 

(and I have to go now before the school tech catches me doing non-school related shit.)

Miss you all terribly.

 

klammed ~ 
Remember this? 



The once upon a times wherein we all thought friendship would last forever. Then time passes and people move on... You know the drill. S'just you an' me left of our insane lil' group now, eh?

We'll live. 

 

I think that there are no more RPs out there worth apping for D:
Or RPs that would be willing to take in this lil' stray.
I should stick with TF and cull and give up on all other RPs!
Recommend me some or

FIND ME ANOTHER FANDOM D:

Jill took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Intense, vital, and animated, taking a delight in ..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

You're right, centric. It's freakishly accurate. o.o

'Twas a relaxing weekend;
Javanese massage, herbal steam room, futile shopping, donut buying, sleeping in till 9, doing absolutely nothing productive... you get the picture. & Speaking of pictures, lethanon, I'll upload some when I get around to bugging my mum for them 'cause I didn't bother bringing my camera. *lazy; sheepish* More to come then, unless I completely forget. (& you owe me tag, girl!)

Unfortunately, it's over.
I did finish reading 'Pride & Prejudice' for the 2nd time this year, although I didn't quite make it through 'Fasting, Feasting'. I was supposed to work on a lit essay today but somehow I spent the entire day looking through fics and playing some mindless mystery solver game. Oh, and falling asleep with lit text over my face. XD I fail like that.

I blame the weather...
'Cause it's so goddamned HOT. Stepping out of the house is practically suicide. The moment you open the door there's this heatwave heading straight at your face. Not Pleasant. Mandatory bath-taking after stepping out of the house now. Dreading school tomorrow (*tosses face towel into duffel*)

Drawing the line D:
Gotta happen some time, preferably soon now. Ugh, I hate it when I have to do this. Makes life so... miserable, I think the word is. The reduction of one's daily lifestyle into a series of instructions, attempts at fulfilling expectations, reaching for that unseen end...... dead. X3

This reminds me of a recent conversation actually. Guy called me up from marketing company that I did a job survey for awhile back.

random employee: We're kind of short on staff now so if you're interested you should come down for the orientation next week.
me: I'd love to, but I kinda finish school at 6:30pm.
random employee: Oh, is that just for tomorrow?
me: Nope, that'd be every day of the week, almost.
random employee: *laughs* Year 2 then?
me: How ever did you know? -_-

( MUST-DO list )

6 WEEKS TO BLOCK TESTS II
*facepalm* Needless to say, I will be attempting to mug myself up a wall. The to-do list at the side of my LJ looks pre~tty daunting. *!)@#*!_@(#* 'Nuff said.

HELLO moonsliver
Welcome to my f-list. I don't spam much, promise.
Will hopefully catch you and mildly_deluded at good times for playing next week. (:

TAKING WEEKEND OFF
Going to M'sia for spa treatment and whatnot courtesy of my uncle and my mum's indulgence. I like indulgence (:
Unfortunately, it also means that I will probably end up not being able to complete my assignments that are due next week. Oops.

Need to go pack duffel now or I'll end up falling asleep before I get round to doing it. I'm stupid like that ~

I WILL SEE YOU GUYS NEXT TUESDAY (WITH PICCUS) TYVM ♥ BE GOOD ^_~
'specially you, mikage. Don't forget to eat even tho' you're getting buried under workload.

Tomorrow's Tricia's 3rd death anniversary.

( I almost forgot. )

I finish off school at 6:30pm but I'll be meeting the guys for drinking and rounds of tear-inducing nostalgia. Somehow it's almost tradition now... one of those do or die kind of traditions.

Oddly enough, I'm looking forward to it.